Journeys end

I journey alone
Through the deep dark uncertainty
I can't see beyond the next step
I continue regardless
To stop will be to fail
Yet I still dont know what success is
Others have their own journey
Some are near the end
Other are yet to begin
Sometimes our paths cross
only fleetingly

I journey alone, it is mine only to take
Until my journeys end
Dear Lord I pray go with me

What am I worth

Well after months of searching I finally get a job offer
I know what you thinking Great news right?
Well not quite
Firstly sods law dictates that it's the job ad that you respond to just because you can not because you really want it that shows interest. Sorta like getting looks from the girl you are not really interested in while her cuter friend is oblivious So there I am throwing together a half baked cover letter and standard cv and guess what they wanna interview me. So I think oh well @ least I could do with the practice. so I do the interview, do the presentation all goes well. It turns out they are interested, hey not too bad I think perhaps I can use this as a springboard to other things. Then the next week in comes the formal offer. Well lets just say I was two steps away from an angry response and one step away from a series of expletives. Continuing with the analogy its like the non cute girl trying to act like a diva after you politely entertain her attempt to chat you up. Well not quite this was much worse.
This had me thinking about how much I was worth in the market place.
Did they really believe I'd jump at this offer? They could not be serious, so in goes my measured response thinking surely they'd come up with something approaching decent. I mean mate I aint that desperate. To say that their attempt at upping their offer was laughable would be an understatement. More insulting was their attempt at trying to justify their offer saying that it was benchmarked against competitors and my figures were wrong. Lol I can understand if there is a budgetary limit but once you start trying to fob off the facts then I get really pissed off
In essence if they want me then market rate is what am going for
If they cant pay market rate bye bye
I have sold myself in cheaply before to get a job,and am living with the consequences today, not doing it again
Time to get paid

God of War

He feasts on the blood of innocents
The merciless shedding of lives
The blameless are his sacrificial lambs
The zealous are his prophets

Palestine,Iraq, London, Madrid, New York
These are his temples, built on human bones
Soldiers, Insurgents, Bombers
These are his followers
His high priests preach hate and death
By their fruits you shall know them
Their fruit is death
Not the death of soldiers in battle
Not the death of those who willfully sacrifice them selves for a cause
Their fruit is death of the innocents
Death of Iraqis,Palestinians, Israelis, Americans, British, Indonesians, Pakistanis, Nigerians

The God of War
His followers amass daily
They congregate in dark corners
They prey on the minds of the weak, misguided, hate filled
His high priests; Neo cons, Imams, Politicians
Their doctrines, policies, speeches
Spread this War of Hate
This festival of bloodshed continues

Everday they continue, their supplications to him
By their actions they sing his praises, whilst calling upon the name of God, Allah, YAHWEH
The War continues
The God of War is increasingly glorified

Yet another Thursday

So we come to yet another Thursday
Echoes of London still remain
Its there in their eyes
The fear & suspicion
The hate, all because of the difference in skin
This is what the bombers have created

This is the fallout from this war
The war on terror
The clash of civilisations
Tel Aviv, New York,Gaza,Baghdad, Madrid,Kabul, Nairobi,Basra... London
These are the battle fields
And the foot soldiers... American, British, Saudi Pakistani, Indonesian,Eritrean, Somali and more
This is the new world war
A war not fought with divisions, regiments
This is a war in which the enemy has no shape
A formless enemy is a dangerous one
Principle of Sun Tzu applied to this "war of faith"

There is no honour in this war
The innocents are the victims
The 52 in London, the countless Iraqi's blown apart not by the coalition but by Iraqi suicide bombers
This cannot be a war about true faith on either side
Rather the most twisted intepretations have been used on both sides to achieve the aims of a few
We sit and watch
We wait for the next strike, the next battlefield
I do not understand these suicide bombers
I do not understand the indoctrination that would convince a man to take his life along with unwilling souls
Who would listen to a man telling one to die for the faith while he continues on in life
I am disgusted by the suicide bombers in London
Not for their religion
Not for their mindset as misguided and as wrong as I feel it is
I am disgusted by what I see as their stupidity, taken from their privileged existence and convinced to die for a cause in the false hope that their "martyrdom" would make a difference. That they would further the cause of their religion, their brothers in Iraq by taking lives
The stupidity of this is demonstrated by the death of Iraqi's the next day killed by another suicide bomber. These were not infidels, not western aggressors - innocent civilians, women & children.
Not like the Palestinians killing Israeli's, No they killed fellow Iraqis, fellow Muslims
If suicide ombers die as martyrs, can they all then share the same fate- a place in heaven for killing other Muslims, for killing children?

The war has begun
The battlefields are lit with the flames
Wet with the blood of innocents of all ages, races, creeds
Their deaths will not go unavenged

To the innocents lost on either side
R.I.P